Dear Lord, 

I really went this whole semester without praying to you… I don’t know how you can be so forgiving and loving towards someone who has lost their way. 

Before school started, I thought that I could keep you in my heart and be able to leave a ministry that didn’t need someone like me. That ministry made me feel like I was not family to them anymore because I became older and “not understanding” of what those children are going through. 

Where do I start? Hi, father. I miss you. Will you ever forgive me? I became consumed in my work. I became consumed in trying to live life for myself and whatever makes me happy. I tried to follow my dreams, but Lord, I don’t even know where these paths are taking me anymore.

I still believe in God. I still believe in you. But, I just feel like no one believed in me anymore. Who am I to become inspirational? Who am I to become the person I aspire to be? With this new year coming, I never thought I was going to be able to live to see 2014. 

You were always near. You were always watching me. I owe my life to you. I used to live life just for you. But I was too busy with getting my life on track, trying to graduate, trying to be a part of organizations to help my life get somewhere that is has led me to a place, where I just felt alone and you’re about to leave your daughter. 

I am truly sorry and hope you can forgive someone as selfish as me. 

Father, I long to be with you. I aspire to be walk my path as a strong young womyn. Leading others to your gates and into Heaven. I forgot who I was. I became weak. I relied too much on what I needed to work on myself and got used to it and forgot about the qualities I already had.

You love me, I feel your warmth as I listen to your praises, as I listen to your prayers. Father, life without you is not truly living. 

I ask for your guidance. To help me come back to your home, to lead where I am supposed to lead, to follow my true path and live for you and live inside you.

Please forgive me father, I pray and I’m on bended knees hoping you’ll accept me father and help mold me, again.

   dares2dream asked:
   Hi, Reeze! :D 37, 63, 95! :)

I replied with:

Hi, Kaaayla! Whomps, I answered all of it, haha.


 1. Last kiss: Recently.

 2. Last phone call: 3 hours ago.

 3. Last text message: 4 hours ago.

 4. Last song you listened to: Don’t Change - Musiq

 5. Last time you cried: Recently.


 6. Dated someone twice: Yes.

 7. Been cheated on: I don’t think so.

 8. Kissed someone & regretted it: No.

 9. Lost someone special: Friendship-wise, yes.

 10. Been depressed: Yes.

 11. Been drunk and threw up: Yes.

*missing 12-14.


 15. Made a new friend: Yes.

*where’s 16?

 17. Laughed until you cried: Yes.

 18. Met someone who changed you: YES.

 19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes.

 20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes.


*where’s 21-25?

 26. What did you do for your last Birthday: I don’t remember most of it, lol.

 27. What time did you wake up today: 11:38am.

 29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Going to the Philippines, IF the day comes.

 30. Last time you saw your all of your siblings at the same time: Two weeks ago.

 31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Nothing I would change, everything happens for a reason.

 32. What are you listening to right now: Hillsong - Came to my Rescue.

 34. Who’s getting on your nerves right now: People.

 35. Most visited webpage:

 36. Favorite colour: Purple & Blue.

 37. Nicknames: Rez or Reeze.

 38. Relationship Status: SINGLE.

 39. Zodiac sign: Virgo.

 40. Male or female: Male.

 41. Primary school: CSUS.

 42. Secondary School: Nada.

 43. High school/college: Hm.

 44. Eye color: Brown.

 46. Height: Taller than me.

 47. Do you have a crush on someone: I’m actually unsure.

 48. What do you like about yourself: I’m made in God’s image.

 49. Piercings: Two.

 50. Tattoos: I want.

 51. Righty or lefty: Righty.


 53. First piercing: Ears.

 54. First best friend: White girl.

 55. First hookup: I don’t recall.

 56. First Bestfriend: You asked this already?!


 59. Eating: Nothing.

 60. Drinking: Water.

 61. I’m about to: Shower.

 62. Listening to: Same song.

 63. Waiting for: Me to know, & you to find out.


 64. Want kids? Yes.

 65. Get married? Yes. 

 66. Career? Pharmacist; Speaker for Small groups.


 67. Lips or eyes: Lips.

 68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs.

 69. Shorter or taller: Taller.

 70. Older or Younger: Older.

 71. Romantic or spontaneous: Both, I can’t decide.

 72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Stomach.

 73. Sensitive or loud: Either.

 74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship.


 76. Kissed a stranger: Nope.

 77. Drank hard liquor: Hm.

 78. Lost glasses/contacts: Yeah!

*where’s 79?

 80. Broken someone’s heart: Yes.

 *where’s 81?

82. Been arrested: Yes.

 83. Turned someone down: Yes.

 84. Cried when someone died: Yes.

 85. Fallen for a friend: YES.


 86. Yourself: Yes.

 87. Miracles Yes.

 88. Love at first sight Yes.

 89. Heaven: Yes.

 90. Santa Clause: Yes.

 91. Kiss on the first date: Depends.

 92. Angels: Yes.

 93. How would you label yourself? My name.

 94. Someone You Pray Everyday For: My mom.

 95. Did you sing today: Yes.

 96. Who From All Your Ex’s have You Cared The Most About: Justin.

 97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? I wouldn’t.

 98. Out Of Everything In The World What Do You Wish For: Ultimate happiness.

 99. Are you afraid of falling in love? YES.

 100. Do you like the way you look? Not really, but yes.

Hello, again.